looking for the stars.....

i am looking for the stars...well i am not seeing one of them yet, just a grey and dark cloud on the sky....maybe if i look hard enough i will someday see them and they will shower me with their star-light.....
oh please...dont take and digest the above paragraph easily..."stars" are not actually the stars,but it refers to my future and my grades in examinations....i hope to see the bright grade and also the bright future and i believe i will....one fine day...*hoping
for days and actually almost a week i am not really having the right sleeping time and i feel my life are upside down, having all sort of emotions disorders and also depressed a little...those are all due to the tests and also the assignments...
i kinda feel useless as i studied so hard for the exam according to the material our teacher provide to us and also the past years questions BUT the real exam (test actually) was none of that and its like a new advance kinda questions...it was damn hard...i felt like punching the lecturer on her face...hahahhaa...but i would not do that......( i am a nice girl )....>_^
sebenrnya kan...aku tau je nak jawab soalan2 tu acane tapi faktor masa dan jugak nervous and panic attack tu kan aku jadi blurr...hahahha....enough about the study thingy....

 well hidup aku? everything is okay...like really ok...last two days dapat cousin baru..nama dye orked naurah...baby girl..baby lagi dah nampak lawa dye...untung laa lawa kan?hahahha..(*ngan baby pn nak jeles)...hidup aku dah ok sikit...well ok la...
tapi kan gosip2 liar ni susah laa nak padamkan.... ntah pape je kan diorang ni buat spekulasi....*sabo je la...
tapi kan aku pon rasa cm xde masa sangat utk diri sendiri....and aku pon BENGANG gile coz elaun utk bulan ni msok half je...dah laa awal bulan tu banyak barang nak beli kan?? dah tu skarang pon aku dah jadi pape kedane.....sob3!!!....
bile la nak masok half lagi...makan pon dah cm catu ni..hahahahahah....
aku ada blajar benda baru...
"the things that we like are maybe not the best thing and also it maybe wrong...do the right thing even if you are not really into it because the right thing is better than what you like"...
aku pon belajar yang aku kna pandai manage diri aku...
it will never be to late to learn and change yourself into something better....