jalan-jalan sedunia

fuh letih betul hari nie....dari dungun merantau ke kuale trg......then rehat 10minit......after that trus ke rumah pengantin (kawan mak sedare)......dhea hanye meneman......hahhahha.....rumah dye kat felda keruak, jertih trg.....bertolak pukul 8 pagi n sampai umah pengantin pukul 12.30 t/hari......fuh jauh tu....230km......
on the way mcm2 perkara mnarik yg ditemui....mula2 ak tertarik dgn keindahan alam.....cantik sangat pokok2 di tepi jalan...the kami berpeluang rasa kerusi urut osim.....hahahah....jalan yg x elok.....bergegar kereta.....lpas 3 ak dapat tgok sawah padi yg menghijau.......cantik sangat3....hijau.....tenang sangat rase......pastu nampak ad org tengah buat kerje kat tengah2 sawah....x sangka ada lagik tempat hijau camtu sekarang.....comel sangat3....then travel lagik sampai bandar besut...kat situ aku nampak ad satu rumah yg klasik....mcm istana lame2 kat tepi jalan......dengan pagar kayu yg berukir....kagum betul dengan seni yang ad kat rumah tu......nnti kalau ada peluang dhea upload gmbar2 tu......cantik sangat2......everything looked natural....simply beautiful.....

hardship in life......=(..reality or just fantasy??

mmg susah bila kita terpaksa berbohong dan menipu kpada sseorang mengenai sesuatu prkara in order to protect her/him.....expecially someone we love.....we have to pretend that we hate all the things he/she give to us....make he/she hate us......and making he/she hurt badly....that kind of pengorbanan mmg dhea hargai a lot....kita terpakse brkorban ssuatu yg buat kte gmbira n bhgia smata2 agar org tersebut tidak kehilangan family...harta...n everything he/she have because of us.....kita trpaksa pndam sndiri ksakitan yg dirasai bila kita mnyakiti org tersebut....pretend to be tough and heartless.....that is really hard......but sometimes we have to go through it as we live our life.....i hope i will never face this kind of hardship in my life.....the most hard thing to do is to make person/s that we love or important to us hate us or maybe leave us for a reason that only we know.....hurting them....watching they cry.....watching their heart broke in front of our eyes.....to me that is really killing a person from inside and out....


(posting this post after seing the korean drama 'SECRET GARDEN'......really touch my heart.....)

new year..new me????

first of all......hppie new year.....ak da msok 18( according to the year)....
thn 2011 byk knangan suke duka ak....
LIST OF MY 2011 LIFE:
-ak still mgharap pd dye yg daa lme hilang......
-ak tau kbenaran yg dye in complicated relationship...
-hti ak hncur brkecai utk org yg sme for uncountable time....
-org yg kononnye ske kt ak blah hye sbb give up krn prkre kcik jer....hampeh....
-ak brusaha brmatian utk spm ak....
-ak daa lpas spm....
-da ckup sthun ak khilangan abah......
-ak mulai mmahami keadaan dunia yg pnoh cubaan....
-ak trpkse brpisah dgn kwn2 ak........my best fwends ever...
-ak da abis skolah....
sbnrnye byk lgik yg jdi thn nie......tp main nyer hati ak HANCUS.....BERKECAI......then ak berharap blik.....this process happens again and again.....huh!!!!
tp x pe.....cme ak x tau knp ak bodoh sgt ttp berharap kt org yg dah tggalkn ak for almost 4 year.....
well he's my first boy that i like...i admired.....i love.....for almost 8 year until now.....
crazy me....stupid me......hahahhahaha......ak x phm knp ak bley still setia kpd org yg da hncur lburkn hati ak for millions of times.......cnta itu gila.......bkn ak x prnah cube lupekan dye tp entah......x pnah brjye...ak jgak prnah try suka kt org laen tp muke dye jugak dtg.....hampeh......siot tol laa mamat 2.....bkn dye x tau ak ske kt dye...(or mmg dye x phm kot).....ak mmg bangang sbb still tunggu org ye cm 2......
ak harap new year nieak bley lupekan dye.....spenohnye...insyaallah......
Ya Allah...Kau tmukan ak dgn seseorg yg bleh mmbntu ak mlupakan drinya.....tabahkanlah hatiku.....sekiranya dia yg terbaik untukku maka engkau perdekatkan lah hati kami berdua namun sekiranya dia bukan tercipta untukku....maka engkau temukan ak dengan dia yang telah engkau iptakan untukku sejak azali lagi.....
amin.....