what the hack is this???

"mungkin kita pernah rasa tentang cinta yg takdirnya bukan utk kita.....mgkin ini adalah cara meluah cinta tanpa berkata atau berpandang mata.....mungkin aku mencintaimu walaupun engkau x penah tau...mungkin aku mencintaimu dalam diam ataupun bisu...i'm sorry but i love u....i'm sorry if i miss u....even if i can't have u....u know i'll always be there for u...."- i love you by najwa latif....
suddenly, i feel stupid for believing or for thinking about a particular person....the kind of didn't even know that i liked him or something!!!!he was so annoying coz he kept running through my mind....am i crazy or what????.....i hate this kind of things.....to be honest, this is the 2nd time for me to actually like someone in real word....the last time i liked a boy is for more than 6 yeaars...the same boy....and i managed to just throw him away...hahhahaha....FINALLY!!!after few years of trying....=).....
and now the thing repeated as i liked someone....a guy that don't get that i like him or whatever....i think, it is so obvious...., even that i never tell him or something but he should know.....(maybe)....i don't know....but maybe he don't get it....
and the most important, what is the point of he calling me every weekends???sang songs to me...asked me to hear a very sweet song and so on????what's the POINT???...i'm sick of being like this as i kept hearing rumors about he with someone else or liking another girl......just tell me what is you wanna do???just playing on me or what???i don't really like hopping that you would like me as well but the ways you threaded me, the way you asked me for the same color of clothes, the songs that you sang to me, all of the credits of your phone that you waste just to call me.....what the hack are those???you've shown me like the sweet side of you and i don't think any girl just like feeling nothing after all of the things you've done....
yup, im a blur girl...i don't get what you mean but even i'm blur, all  of the cheezy thing just like hoocked me up dude....i'm a girl with soft heart....
last weekend, i waited for your calls, you mssges but none of them appeared to make me happy...i kept waiting and waiting...and finally you texted me at night but it was it....the next day, sunday, no news from u until this second...what is going on???are u just gonna walk away just like that after making m wait for your regular activities during the weekend that are calling me, text me and just talk to me???what? am i a doll or something....
seriously dude....i'm feeling that i'm  a fool right now...what kind of game are u playing???hours ago a guy told me that you like a girl, a******.....another girl from trg.....i was like WHAT???...oh God, what am i dealing with right now???why do you just disapeared like that???no nothing from u....oh god...
am i supposed to let u go????can i even do that???
i hate it when someone knocked at my heart's door and just left.....i'm not crying!!!just an empty feeling....
what so ever laa...i'm not thinking of it but just to let u know, HEART IS NOT THE SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN PLAY WITH!!!

berakhir sudah semua.....

the last day at atiq's house....all of my feeling just mixed up....all of us knew that we had to go back to our own colleges....our fun time together will over soon....packed our things....and finally leave atiq's house for a time that only God will know....

all of us (except the KMB-ians) decided to pay a visit at KMS.....too bad the KMB-ians had to get back because they had the longest journey to get back to their college....we bought the tickets and entered the coach of KTM.....and it was empty...so we made the coach as our own...hahhaah...we sure did took a lot of pictures....with all the poses....( i just keep smiling when thinking of the sweet moments)...and the train moved.....in few minutes, we reached Seremban station, where we had to waved goodbye to all the KMB-ians....eira cried and i totally tried my hardest not to cry.....so, goodbye awin, shah, and eira......can't wait to see you all one fine day.......

we exited Seremban station and headed to KMS by taxis.....the scenery before reaching KMS is so beautiful and peaceful...i love that kind of scenery....the sun was right on our heads as we reached KMS.....met shasha, wendy,henokh,debbie and all the KMS-ians except for few who still did not arrived from their home....had such a nice moment even it just lasted for an hour.....but the memory created will last forever......

went back to the Seremban station and bought tickets to Shah Alam station.....we also bought drinks for the preparation.....who knew that maybe we had to break our fasting in the train or wherever we would.....

transited at KL Central at 7.26 p.m, only few minutes from the Maghrib's azan....and as i expected earlier, we really berak our fasting of the day in the train...thank you for the early planning....^^v.....

reached Shah Alam at 8.15 p.m.....the boys took a taxi to cendana while the girls( including me) waited for the bus....and finally, after hours of travelling non-stop, we reached our home....(at INTEC)......akasia and cemara....

felt so happy.....and i didn't sleep right away....made my work on tenses, quick review.....getting ready for classes tomorrow....and i just remembered!!!! i didn't iron my baju kurung yet!!!!....

after this i'll do that....mwahahahaha.....updating my blog is my priority now.....

tomorrow, i'll upload pictures of this fantastic weekend....

getting ready for everything......nite2....<3

assalamualaikum....

pre calculus....kebahagiaan abadi....

sesungguhnya......me, munir, musa n the others are doing our own work but the most important thing is doing the pre-calculus thingy......it is so stressful, a lot of calculation and seriously a lot of questions that we did, we cannot complete it as we stuck in the middle of the complex solution....rghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!how i wish im a math genius right now....i made  a poem for my most beloved pre-calculus......let's read it and enjoy the meaning....

MY BELOVED PRE-CALCULUS

dear lovely...

you really give me 1001 problems....

but still, i cannot get rid of you...

you're so meaningful for me...

wherever i go you will follow me...

no matter how hard i push you

you will always in my mind

disturbing my life...

since you're always by my side

i will try my best to love you

so that one fine day

you'll get tired of me 

and finally leave me alone

living my life peacefully....

the most sincere poem ever:    by dheann dheanna

copyright 2012...

ehem.....dah puase lagi kita ye....seemed like it was just yesterday we celebrated our last raya..(really?)....within a month, eid ramadhan is coming back!!!!waaaaaa!!! superb exited......
today is the first day of ramadahan.....and here is how our first "sahur" looked like at atiq's house.....who wanna join?????

exited kan mrk makan....hehehhee.....i wonder what we will do today???

shop for baju raya????oh no!!!!

perkampungan kami semua di rumah atiq bakal berlarutan....hahahhaa

tq atiq for the food, shelter, and all the basic needing of a human......

you are the best....=p

buatku disini.....

"sering harungi sendiri, kekurangan diri, hanya Tuhan mengerti......"teringat pulak kat lagu  cerita seindah sakura tersebut......hahhhaha
today....just another wonderful day with my friends......like3....hahahaha..

kami mnyambut bulan ramadhan yg mulia ni di rumah kawan kami yg bernama nurul atikah ramli or atiq......hahahahah.....kita serbu rumah dye...!!!!nie la makanan kami pada malam ini....mcm raya daa makanan2 nie.....hahahha...kmi bhgia....
spending the night here at negeri sembilan at her house with 13s of us....yg penting kami dapat berkumpul.....
senrai kami2 disini....
kms: wakil tunggal-azim
kmb: eira, awin n shah(llki tunggal)
intec: aku, kak intan, munir. borhe, izwan, wan , hafiz, faiz, atiq(tuan rumah)....

nie laa aktviti rasmi kami semua.....
*kebanjiran lappy berlaku di rumah atiq*
sbnarnye kan.....i don't bring my lappy's charger......hahahha.....munir nyer kn ade....kebas je....
hehhehe.....kbahagiann terasa.....
*mintak tolong jeles*
hahahhaha

hargailah insan tersebut...

"bila aku jatuh cinta...kan ku sebut namamu...kan ku tulis lagumu...akan ku sebutkan kata-kata indah...."
menyukai tidak semestinya mencintai dan mencintai tak semestinya memiliki.....
dhea ada seorang kawan yang sangat2 suka, minat n senang kata TERjatuh hati pada seorang llki yg ddiberi nma A(bukan nama sebenar)....everyday, she will at lease once say his name....at least once talk about him and at least once see his pictures..girl nie budak baik....mmg dye x sewenang2nya menyukai someone....A adalah second guy yg dye suka slama 18thn dye dduk n hidup di bumi nie after the first guy, a boy that she liked since she was 11 y'old until she entered form five...7years liking a guy...unfortunately, the previous boy dont really know about this and just leaving her heart broken for years.....
girl nie like this A boy since the first time mreka bersua muka...boy A dont know anything....kot....im not really sure because as far as i know, A is still clueless....

    selepas memandang dari jauh n cuba approach perlahan2, finally that A boy mintak number phone my friend....she was so exited and actually running to me right away...im happy for her...she used to tell me that she likes A because a is Islamic. funny and for a reason which she also dont know...she told me that she is ot the kind of person that easily liked someone or somebody...that A have something that actually attract my friend..not the face but maybe the personality and the charms..they started to text each other, not too often but everyday...that A seemed so nice to her (in my opinion) and she seemed really happy....her face somehow glow and she is smiling all the time...
     A always called her, not everyday, and i love to see her reaction whenever she received a call from him...she started shaking and acting silly...i know her well and from that reaction i knew that he is really important for her....one day, she was in the blue, i asked her why and she told me that there was a girl that admitted she is the girlfriend of A.....suddenly....i knew that she was really feeling down and sad.....so i asked her to ask A properly....so she did it....and A said that it was not true....she was happy again....
   until now, they are still in contact, A always calls her during the weekend normally and also during the days....A always sing to her many songs and all of those things that A did seriously had given her hope even if she said that she did not take A words seriously...i know her better than anyone else...she is hoping even if it just 1%.....and just now, one of my other friends told me that A used to play trick on girls by saying he miss them or her in other languages, and the girl used to get that word....i dont know whether it is right oe wrong but this matter slightly affected her, i can see it from her face.....
   here are some reminders for A.....that girl is liking you sincerely so please appreciate her....she is not the kind of girl that easily attracted to boys, and you better know that she always pray for your health everyday...she always pray for Allah to keep all of his love and his heart to a person that latter on will becomes her husband....and now suddenly, she come to like you, A LOT......dont play around with her.....
i dont want to see that broken heart face like i've seen 4 or five years ago....i dont ask you to make her as your girl or what so ever but just dont play with her feelings.....just stay as friend....why not.....
for me, A just like giving the girl signals, although that girl would never understand it....just please respect her as a friend.....dont give her hopes if you're not mean to take care of her....dont tell her or ask her fo something if you dont like her more than just friend.....i only ask you to do that A......simple....

and just to make u realize, SHE LIKES YOU SO MUCH AND SHE HAD FALLEN FOR YOU.....WITHOUT ANY REASON....**(a helpful friend)..hahahha