crash and burn....yet hoping for light and mercy from HIM

there's a lot going on...like always...what a hectic life..
recently, i watched michelle phan's videos...well, i admired her actually...she's a billionaire...just by makeups tutorials....cooliooooo


constantly, i felt like my dream keeps crushing....and then the hope for the dream build again..then crushed again...mostly by my scholar....what the heck.....#trying not to curse 'hell'
at first they asked me to make 3 choices of course in Monash so i happily did....shortly afterwards...they asked me if i could make another 3 choices for other colleges and universities as plan b, c,d...and the rest of the alphabets...i was like WHAT!!??!!
i entered MUFY as i wanted to go to Monash badly....what would they asked me to choose other colleges? i worked so hard to pass the requirement point and even pass it...i've been lack of sleep for days or even weeks to study... i spend less time on blogging, instagram-ing, facebook-ing and other social networks as i want to focus on my study...i sacrificed all of the weekend to go to other places and my aunt's house to study whenever the test is on...AND NOW U WANT ME TO CHOOSE OTHER INSTITUTION? WHAT'S ABOUT ALL OF MY HARDWORKS TO GO TO MONASH IN THE FIRST PLACE??
im totally pissed off...i hate this...hate it...hate it
why do they allow me to do MUFY if they dont want to send me to Monash? what's the point?
and yet i totally appreciated and feel blessed to have them sponsoring my college life financially but my hope and dream is not a toy for u guys to play with...!!!!!
feel annoyed...worthless and it's like my dream, hope and efforts are toys for them to play with.....

                                             # surely this is not what i look like
this is a great example of "POWER MAY CAUSE INJUSTICE TO THE POWERLESS" and "AGE AND MATURITY ARE NOT ALWAYS BRING WISE TO ONE'S LIFE"
#dear my eng lect, you may consider these two phrase as the essay topic for the contemporary writing...

just hope the best and pray to HIM that always be there with me even when i started to lost from HIS path....thank you Allah for everything.....

naya....its me

Dear All,

Pursuant to the matter above, you are required to block your schedule to attend the End of Year Camp as per below details:

Date: 9th until 22nd December 2013
Venue: To Be Advised Later
Attendance: Compulsory


Only scholars that have classes/examination/tests that fall on the above dates can be excused from attending the session. Proof of your official academic calendar will be required. If you are unable to attend due to this reason, kindly email me together with the academic calendar by Thursday, 26 September 2013.


Appreciate if you could share the information with your Tunas Potensi 1 friends. This is just in case they do not receive my email.


Should you have any queries, please feel free to reply my email.

Thank you.



received this news just now.....oh my...that is in the middle of my break and i am planning to work at that time...ottokaji? seriously this thing....
such a long break from updating this blog...well, i am busy as normal,,,
there's a cool thing...i've finished watching 'to the beautiful you' which is a very cool and good drama....i love this quote, "miracle is another name for hardwork".....and now i am stuck with that drama's ost(s) especially in your eyes by onew...so nice and so sweet.....and i keep listening to it again and again..non-stop
in your eyes

i love that song so much....coz like it really shows appreciation to someone that come to your life...and thanks for coming to mine....
and here's the translated lyric:

I’ve never said this before
To tell you the truth,
I felt my heart beating on that day

Since the beginning, I knew
I wasn’t sure but it felt like
our fate was already decided

Love is coming to me
It leads me toward you
It feels like a dream that
I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

I remember the day we first met
You came to me
on a dazzling and bright day
Thank you for coming to me

Since the beginning, I knew
I wasn’t sure but it felt like
our fate was already decided

Love is coming to me
It leads me toward you
It feels like a dream that
I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

You are smiling at me
On this beautiful day
But why are tears forming
In my eyes?

I hope this is a dream
that I’ll never wake up from
I hope things will never change

I hope the place where love lingers
Can be somewhere we can be together
It feels like a dream
that I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

I remember the day we first met
You came to me
on a dazzling and bright day
Thank you so much for coming to me