Monday, September 15, 2014

why me?

let us face it...
there will be time/ times where the life just slap you on the face, and sometimes it feels like the life just kicked you with a military boot on your face....
basically im experiencing that now....
yeah sometimes, the university or collage system cannot be explained...they just do things crazily and also last minutes which bring hell to the students..
yup, i just said it.....sorry but its how at least my school works...

i was wondering...why i have so much challenges and obstacles in my life, like to be exact, these in few years?
i can made up infinity amount of negative reasons which im not going to because it will anchored me deep down....
so, here are my positive reasons:
1- im awesome and that's why i can get through these hard times
2- there are a lot more for me to learn, these challenges and obstacles are my teachers
3- im strong enough to endure these things
4- im beautiful enough to look straight up without hearing the noises that whispers im ugly
5- im smart enough to make wise decision in my life
6- im blessed enough to have the wake-up call from Allah so that i can keep moving on
7- im getting stronger and more matured each time
8- these difficulties actually make me think more thus expend my brain capability
9- all of these hardship are proof that Allah loves me
10- to be general, its because im a human which is not perfect.....

and i feel so much better now....
let fight till the end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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