hope....and hoping to...............

kesibukan yang luar biasa...and Alhamdulillah almost finish all of the too much assignment...yeah!!!!
last night i cannot sleep at all, well sort of...im not really sleeping....
tired oh My God! seriously im tired../
i'm fasting today...yeay!!
actually i am disappointed as i cannot go to the Majlis Rumah Terbuka of my scholar...i was pissed off as it is a n open house but there are only 100 seats available and u have to request to go...i'd requested like 5 days earlier but still i am not invited due to the full seat stuff...
i am dying to go there, i wanna meet my friends and also eat...but what to do, i am powerless to against this injustice...( suddenly the English question pop-up)...
and i think i am somehow weird these few days coz i am not usually like this...i keep wearing baju kurung and i am pushing myself to complete all of those works..me? hardworking? kinda weird....
maybe this is a transformation on how i dress and look...maybe....dont comment on good things laa...
i would like to share one story...
last few days, on facebook, i saw a picture of a boy crying during the 'Solat Jenazah'...and just now, i saw his picture in Kaapan...his dead with a smile on his face...he died to protect our religion, Islam...what a wonderful fate he had...Syahid.. that's the most wonderful way to die....
May Allah protect him and gives him a awesome place in Heaven...Amiin...
i'm touched of that story...wanna die the same way he and the other Syuhada did...
i am full of sins...i need to be better...a lot better..
talking about die and stuff makes me feel scare, the way i should feel...this life on earth is so short...you can do anything but remember everything is counted....
do good stuff and help others as much as you could but never do bad things to others..
this is the picture i meant earlier
after seeing that picture, i am more motivated to continue my life, my ambitions and my dreams...
i hope to see Allah in the best way a human could....Aminn......

 

maybe yes and maybe not

lamanya x update blog.....\(^_^)/....heheheh tetibe terlebih exited...
dalam msa few weeks ni mcm2 jadik....handphne ilang tapi alhamdulillah ad yg jmpa balik...kaki kna kaca...attempt bli dress yg insyaAllah utk pakai graduate night nanti....
sebenarnya esok ada test math...tapi kemalasan tahap gaban melanda so kita hold dulu study tu and update blog...mwahahaha...*jangan diikot ajaran ini ye...
ak actually berkenan gila ngn dress ni, the no.6 one...
klik sini
sila klik n tgk sndiri...cadangnya nak wt pakai msa graduate nnti....tapi x tau laa...hehehe..
knapa la ak xda mood sangat nk stdy ni? esk test kot!! wake up la!!!
#sesi membebel ngn diri sndiri
banyak benda jadi..aku pn xda la tentu arah as sepatutnya aku jadi....banyak bnda yang distract aku...
ada benda yang x patut aku tau pn ad...bnda yg ak x nk tau pn ad...
tapi pape yg jdi pn aku kna kuat...ak kna brani prthnkan stand aku...
if ak mngalah aku akn hilang ap yg aku harapkn..ak akn hilang ap yg ak syg
ak xnk ilang gelak tawa ak...so ak kna kuat n prtahankan selagi boleh...

ok nak out of the blue jap: weii asal BEAST/B2ST da pkai subang smua? x cool wei

ok back to the subject... ak pn x tau knapa post title tu cmtu...just rasa nak tulis...hahha...
maaf la aku mmg da cm mixed up semua ni...aku x tau mana life ak dah...works terlampau banyak...enviorenment sekeliling pn ntah pape, ramai sgt kat kolej skrg ni...ak da cm serabut..ak x suka org ramai...ta tau....ntah aku x tau...ak jd careless, mengarut, xda mood study and merapu lbih...
aku x suka wei cmni...rasa huru hara sgt..aku cm xtau ap yg aku rasa...cannot define myself at all..ak harap kawan2 ak n the one x serabut or annoying ngn ak...ak nk try cri diri ak blik...and i'll try to do that as fast as i could...
ok la..
#go and tenangkan diri sendiri wpn x tau ap yg ptut ditenangkan