a heart

heart....
its not a glass, once broken considered sold...
once shattered cannot be back to normal...
heart is a strong piece of a human

a woman's heart...
broken.....tear apart....still holding on....
quite weird but its how it is....
complicated....
often herself does not understand her heart...
doesnt understand what she want
to cure it...
give your heart a break....
take some time off..
get it re-organize...
and you'll find the way...
your heart is as strong as ever to go...

as for man,
once she gives you the heart..take a good care of it
it is fragile, soft and easily broken....
there may be times where she wont even hear you..
she may say she dont need you
but she mean the opposite way...
just hold on to her
and she will be okay....
:)

a rant on a night without stars

have u ever loses someone because they changed?
in my life, that always happen...i lose my high school bestfriend because we entered different college and she has other friends.....new friend....and she dont even remember my birthday....
its like very sad to see the closest person to u forgot u.....
those kinda thing happens a lot to me...maybe i attached myself too strong and i kinda hope everlasting friendship.............
i still can remember them in details....

and have u ever be like invisible to someone?
well, i am in that situation somehow...this particular person which shares a place with me kinda pretend that im not there, literally....that person havent spoke to me for a month now and i donno why...previously, we laugh and do stuffs like normal people do and somehow the next day after waking up she just shut me out..i just dont get it

have u ever feel like u dont worth it, like your future is in their hand not yours?
yup, ive been through that..................

have u been with someone that loses him/her self due to stress and they not even realizing it?
yup....and even when u point it out, they will thought that u are overreacting,
yup i know
sometimes i just wanna shut myself up from these kinda feeling....

have u ever be in situation where someone said u are important but they react in the opposite way?
yup...know exactly how it feels.......
u feel like u dont exist or not important at all......actions speak louder than words, like much2 louder..
and to my personal view, if that thing is important to u, u kinda cooperate it into your life and its unlikely for u to forget it....

things happen, life goes on....challenges make u stronger......
im grateful to have those listed above opportunity to grow stronger each time...

health

im a bit worry bout my health....
i have gastric....for a long time ever...had a small surgery of removing my appendix when i was 10....after that my gastric worsen, like when i was in high school, every year i entered the emergency ward due to severe gastric, get few injections, drips.....and after finish my high school, its getting better...
starting from last year....
i had this 'lactose intolerance' kinda thing where i cant take any cultured drinks, milk, cheeses, and also drinks with condensed milk...
and then again things get better, i can eat or consume all those stuff but in small amount...but its better right?
and now,
i kinda have ulcers, replacing all of those nasty gastric, which is worst...hahhaha
#im not really laughing, like fake laugh

now, medicines are parts of life, can only eat porridge.....
NO: milk, fried things, spicy things and so on...

things are getting more complex.........
:(