do i have to let my buddy go to satisfy her???do i have to sacrifice that bad just for her?
why can i keep my best buddy till Jannah???
there are so much pain inside me...i have no more tears to cry... i don't know what to do so i just take a simple solution is that to leave my buddy, the one that really understand me and accept me the way i am...but i am afraid that i could not bear the pain...
in my life, i always lose someone that understand me, my daddy, my best friends.....
usually my best friends will be taken by someone else....so im a lonely girl...im trying to think about my own self, my own happiness but i cannot see others pain and their tears...so i always give up in this life...so many give ups until i lost the the confidence in myself....i feel afraid to talk to strangers and even to talk sometimes because i am afraid i may hurt others....i never think of myself, my own feeling....always about others...
now i think to sacrifice my happiness again to that girl....the girl that doesn't even talk to me...
i dont want my buddy to feel uneasy because of me and that girl....am i doing the right decision???
im afraid of losing him so i think it is better if i left him before he leaves me...
yesterday, he was begging me not to do so as i told him about my decision to leave him...
it will be hard for us but i think it is better....
i dont really know what am i thinking right now...and why do i think about that girl happiness so much instead of mine....
i dont wanna lose my buddy...but what should i do??
the environment always force me to do this kind of thing, leaving my buddy and so on....im sick of it all....can i just have a happy life???just a normal an uncomplicated life???
i really do love my buddy so much because he's like a brother, a buddy and also an enemy to me...
i dont know what to do now.....
please help me and please leave me problems.....please.....
im bagging you....
#i am sick because of these problems....
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