menanti mimpi yang indah.......

Puttin’ my defences up
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack
Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I’m never good enough
When I don’t care
I can play ‘em like a Ken doll
Won’t wash my hair
Then make 'em bounce like a basketball
But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yea you, make me so nervous
That I just can’t hold your hand
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack (x3)
Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And everytime I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help
It’s just not fair
Pain’s more trouble than love is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts
But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume
For you, make me so nervous
That I just can’t hold your hand
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack (x3)
The feelings got lost in my lungs
They’re burning, I’d rather be numb
And there’s no one else to blame
So scared I take off and I run
I’m flying too close to the sun
And I burst into flames
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack (x2)
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack (x2)
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love

thinking that my defences failed me...
ntah la, love can be so sweet and calming, in blink of an eye, it also could change to be something that is so hurtful, so painful...
i am trying to put myself together...trying so hard to recover from my depression....and i was about to be okay and she showed up again..
she's like a chainsaw if i am a tree, she just can cut me down n so on..

i have my faith in you...i believe in u....but u have to avoid that thing if you really want this to work...i maybe strong enough at first but i am getting weaker...i cannot stand too much attack...u must block that because you're the one that holding the pass for that thing to come in...if you keep letting her in, i am not strong enough...i cannot hold on to you anymore...
no one can hold all his money if someone kept opening the door for the thief....
I NEED YOU TO HOLD ON WHEN I AM FALLING APART.......