Friday, December 28, 2012

dont say no no no...

maaf, tajuk post nie tak berkaitan dengan isi post...hehhehe...
(inspired by the song, intuition by Cnblue)...harap maaf...


tetibe terasa nak cakap pasal hidup...matlamat hidup and the things that i want the most in this world....
actually, i am quite scare and  have lots of worries when it comes to future..i wanna be a  scientist but then i've changed my mind to be a botanist and now, i wanna be a food technologist or specialist...
and that is what i am working on now..to  be a food technologist..maybe hard but worth to try..
i am  still like a little girl...love ice-creams, sweets....and i always hate changes...i am scared of changes because i  am afraid to lose memories, people and the situation that i love...
maybe it just me  but people kept changing....maybe its normal
i have lots of dreams....like i want to built a cottage-styled house, with all the vintage elements...i want to own a mini cooper-s one day...wanna walk along the sakura's tree lane...to lay down and enjoy the spring in a tulip field...
and of course want to have A HAPPY FAMILY with good kids and lovable husband ( typical girl's dream..)
i love to plan my life...and i have targets on certain things...but people always say that having targets will make my life more difficult....but who cares what people says...people say lots of things....
life is only once....take it, appreciate it or leave it, waste the whole thing.....

 nae familia....(tetibe keluaR filipina..)...i have responsibilities as the only daughter, the eldest one and also to my mother...sometimes all of this responsibilities thingy really make me annoying and stressful but i cannot run from it at all....i always want a happy life, without worries and maybe some fun but i seldom get it...when i wanna do something, i have to think more than ten times....
maybe that is the life that i should live with...redha dan pasrah.....
i would like to type along a lyric translation from a korean song ....kinda represent me somehow...i love stars

byul (stars) by kim taeyeon...

 the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..
they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, 
I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love 
that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, 
I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever





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