merapu bin mengarut.....

a nice day.......but it turned worst for me as my memory makes me remembering something that i don't wanna to remember...
at first, me and the two dudes are on our way to suria KLCC, just to eat the mee wantan....hehhehe just another crazy work and idea of us....but seriously, mee wantan there is really delicious....sampai menjilat chopstick....hahhahaha
and then just being crazy, wondering around the place.....and the best part, the KINOKUNIYA book store.....i bought two new comic books....i just love comics and novels, because they always get the happy ending in their love story, not like in the real life....*kenapa jiwang tetibe nie??
'bertahun lama, aku pun derita sendiri...bertingkah sedih dengan sepi, apa mungkin nasib ku begini'-ilham dimatamu by milla
lama tak dengar that song
back to the story..... just had another fun and free day at first but then.....on our way back to where we are now, at KTM Segambut to be more specific, i saw a bag, the exact same bag as 'he' used to wear.....
just in split of a second, i remembered him,,the story of years ago.....my mind suddenly felt empty and my heart just felt really heavy...
i was about to cry because of the memory but i won't let my tears scroll down to my cheek....im not that weak.....
'tak mungkin kerana sayang, cuma terkadang aku terbayang'.....
yeah, that's all...but i dont know....maybe because i kept the pain caused by him for so long from anyone.....i never shared the pain....he just remained inside me somehow.....
i dont know why iam instantly looking for him as i saw the bag...what a silly me....nan babo!!!
im stupid at that time....
*dear my memory....do delete all of the folders of him during our period of together out of my mind forever....



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#kinda how i feel now